It is so much more difficult for me to lose the future (that we had in Kai) than it is to lose the past. The past has memories, relationships, character and mementoes for us to remember it by.
Kai did not have time in our community of family and friends to form these things that would make up a Memory of him.
Even though I know that it is impossible, my greatest fear is that I will forget about my still born son, Kai.
I know what you mean. I too mourn the loss of my future and my childrens' future every day. How I wish, wish, wish that I had long lasting memories of my children. How I fear losing the few memories that I have.
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